Wednesday, October 8, 2008

I shall love my enemies...

I have maybe two friends at school. One for sure, but the rest... I don't want to say they are all my enemies, but they are surely not my friends. Quite a few people have already expressed their disgust in me because of my faith. One girl in particular was recently talking to a group of people in the lunch line about how (she thinks) Jesus was a "pimp". I turned around and proclaimed for all to hear that JESUS WAS SINLESS. She looked at me with hatred distorting her face, and said "No, Jesus was a pimp."
For a few seconds I struggled with what to do, but decided on keeping quiet. I knew that starting an argument would not have been Christ-like. But I was angry. Strangely, though, sadness was the dominant emotion, not anger. I ate my lunch in silence (alone, as usual), fighting back tears and wondering if I had done the right thing. I decided to call my youth pastor on the office phone, and I told him what happened. The tears came out as I tried to explain how sad I felt for Jesus. My pastor assured me that I had done the right thing in walking away. He prayed for me, and we ended the call. I felt immense peace when we said the word "Amen".
The next class went without incident, but then that same girl came to me, and with all the disgust and condescension she could muster in her face and voice, she said "You're weird." I walked away. I was getting ready to walk home (there were still two classes left in the day), tears streaming down my face, when I stopped myself and thought. If I let them know that they can get to me like that, they will keep doing it. Also, if I give up because of something so simple and stupid, how is that representing Jesus? So I wiped my tears, bowed my head, and prayed, right there in the middle of the hall. And I let Jesus be my strength. I'm so grateful no students saw my weakness.
Then, this morning on the bus, the same girl, once again, started talking about how Jesus was a pimp. She knew I could hear her, and I think she did it to try to antagonize me. I ignored her. I started thinking about how alone I am at this school. I think I am the only Christian here, except certain teachers. Since it is illegal for teachers to discuss their faith with students during school, I have often stayed after school later (since I walk home anyways) to talk to them. With one teacher in particular, it always turns into a theological discussion, which I love, because I don't get those very often. (He also shares the same views about Rob Bell as me).
Anyways, as I was thinking about being alone in my faith, the song Whispers in the Dark by Skillet came on my CD Player. These are the lyrics:

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

Despite the lies that you're making
Your love is mine for the taking
My love is just waiting
To turn your tears to roses

I will be the one that's gonna hold you
I will be the one that you run to
My love is a burning, consuming fire

No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

You feel so lonely and ragged
You lay there broken and naked
My love is just waiting
To clothe you in crimson roses

I will be the one that's gonna find you
I will be the one that's gonna guide you
My love is a burning, consuming fire

No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear my whispers in the dark
No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark

No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes I'll light the night with stars
Hear the whispers in the dark
No, you'll never be alone
When darkness comes you know I'm never far
Hear the whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark
Whispers in the dark

So I picked my head up, looked towards the sky, and prayed. Just a few minutes ago, I looked in my book Armed and Dangerous: Straight Answers from the Bible. I looked up "enemies". This is what I found:

Proverbs 16:7
When a man's ways are pleasing to the LORD,
he makes even his enemies live at peace with him.

Romans 12:17-19
Do not repay anyone evil for evil. Be careful to do what is right in the eyes of everybody. If it is possible, as far as it depends on you, live at peace with everyone. Do not take revenge, my friends, but leave room for God's wrath, for it is written: "It is mine to avenge; I will repay," says the Lord.

Luke 6:28-29
bless those who curse you, pray for those who mistreat you. If someone strikes you on one cheek, turn to him the other also. If someone takes your cloak, do not stop him from taking your tunic.

Matthew 5:43-44
"You have heard that it was said, 'Love your neighbor and hate your enemy.' But I tell you: Love your enemies and pray for those who persecute you,

Luke 6:37
"Do not judge, and you will not be judged. Do not condemn, and you will not be condemned. Forgive, and you will be forgiven.

Hebrews 13:6
So we say with confidence,
"The Lord is my helper; I will not be afraid. What can man do to me?"

Deuteronomy 28:7
The LORD will grant that the enemies who rise up against you will be defeated before you. They will come at you from one direction but flee from you in seven.

Psalm 60:12
With God we will gain the victory, and he will trample down our enemies.

Psalm 97:10
Let those who love the LORD hate evil, for he guards the lives of his faithful ones and delivers them from the hand of the wicked.


TO ALL THOSE WHO HATE ME, I WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU. TO ALL THOSE WHO SIN AGAINST ME, I WILL ALWAYS FORGIVE YOU. THAT BEING SAID..... I DON'T CARE WHAT YOU SAY ABOUT ME, BUT DO NOT INSULT, MY GOD, MY BEST FRIEND.


Love,
Sirhk

1 comment:

AJS said...

If you were always surrounded by Christians you wouldn't be able to let your light shine in the darkness. As I said it my last post, being a Christian is challenging...but oh so rewarding.